I feel completely lonely. It seems like no one wants to hang out, and I’m literally trapped inside of my home. I feel isolation every day, and it’s driving me insane. No one seems to like me anymore, or just enough to keep small conversation. No one wants to hang out, no one talks to me. Why do I have to always be the one to initiate things? I invited 30 + people to my grad party, not even five bothered showing up, I had a fourth of july party, only a couple people decided to show up. What the hell is wrong with everyone? What did I do to insult you all? seriously, I feel like I pissed off everyone I know and they don’t want to talk to me.

Also I feel unloved, and I’m not talking about family love, that’s different, and that doesn’t count. All of my exes now hate me, and every girl I’ve ever liked has shot me down when I asked or confessed my feelings. I’m better as a friend? How in the hell is that fair? What is it? Am I not attractive enough? I am depressed almost 24/7 and I hate it. If I die tomorrow, I feel like no one would come to my funeral. I also feel like I’ll be alone forever. Don’t give me the bullshit “ms. Right is out there, just wait..” because I’m fucking tired of waiting. I found ms. Right a long time ago, and she decided to be selfish. I’m sick of being alone.