http://www.joshutopia.com Everything from Poetry to Politics! Thu, 19 Aug 2010 21:06:35 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en Love, that one four letter word that is the double- edged blade for humanity in its entirety. I've been in love and have lost love. Everyone has been there. Love is so confusing and complex that the human brain can not comprehend the term. What makes us fall in love? ... http://www.joshutopia.com/?p=290 Love doesn’t know me anymore, Can’t you see I’m sore? Can you see me through the glass? Or will you bow your head and quickly pass? I don’t know what to do, Can you say it’s true? The fact that you see me, In a way that I never wanted it to be, And now I’m stuck here, A ... http://www.joshutopia.com/?p=288 What Have I Become? ~~ Walking around as a question, Wearing my heart on my sleeve, Waiting for an answer, The light is there but I can’t see, I just waste away, Waiting in this darkened place, Wishing someone would stay, But I only see another darkened face, Forever bounded by rope, Chasing the dragon’s tail, Holding onto nonexistent hope, Until my eyes ... http://www.joshutopia.com/?p=286 The Loneliness is coming back. It's just that feeling of not having a girlfriend. Someone to cuddle with, someone to confide in, someone to believe in. I don't know if this comes from a self- loathing or it's isolation. I feel disconnected from my friends and family. No one really makes me ... http://www.joshutopia.com/?p=284 Happiness, love, and success are not destinations, but they are journeys. Picture this; We are all automobiles on the road of life. All of us go a certain way. We all take certain exits, on ramps, back roads, but everyone is on a road. The problem is that we don't ... http://www.joshutopia.com/?p=282 First off, as a disclaimer, I am in no way either homophobic, or homosexual, I'm just trying to make a point. Girls can have sleepovers and its fine, but if guys have sleepovers, it's considered gay, If a guy is wearing pink, let alone bright colors, he's gay, If a guy's hair is ... http://www.joshutopia.com/?p=280 I'm finally co ming out of the dark cocoon that I've seemed to wrap myself in. I'm growing and learning every day on my path to manhood. Honestly, I still don't think I'm ready to be a man yet, I'm still learning. A contradiction strikes me, as I remember a quote ... http://www.joshutopia.com/?p=278 I started smoking. It's a dirty, nasty habit that's directly or indirectly taken tons of lives. I've tried to quit, and that didn't work out too well. I got rid of my pack, and come the next morning I felt awful and before I knew it, I was at CVS ... http://www.joshutopia.com/?p=276 There has been a lot of concern upon my mental health in the past few weeks, but a lot of it is gone, and I am, dare I say, better. I haven't been depressed or have had suicidal thoughts in the past few days and I am expecting this to ... http://www.joshutopia.com/?p=274 I have been a lot in these past few months. I've been suicidal, damaged, heart broken, ripped apart in almost every way possible. Now, I feel like I have everything back together again. I feel better, and happy in my own skin once more. Yeah, being single sucks and all, ... http://www.joshutopia.com/?p=272